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* Kevil is in his room, still awake, but dressed in a bedrobe. He is sitting by the window and idly - and quietly! - playing his lute. * Meghan turns towards the Dragon's Den after walking about half way home. She stops as she gets outside the door to the Inn and paces a bit looking somewhat frustrated. * Meghan bites her bottom lip and makes her way up to Kevil's room taking another moment and then knocking lightly on his door. <Kevil> ::The music stops suddenly, and a moment later, Kevil opens the door.:: Meghan! ::He looks surprised, but opens the door a little wider and gestures her in:: <Kevil> What are you doing about so late? Is there trouble? * Meghan steps into the room not meeting his gaze she stands just inside the room her eyes on the floor. "I'm sorry to bother you so late Kevil, but I didn't know who to go to, and I just can't bear to be alone right now." Her words tumble from her a bit faster than she wanted * Kevil takes Meghan's arm and leads her toward the chair. "Hush, bright star, all is well. Here; sit down. Relax. Take a deep breath, and tell me what's wrong." * Meghan sits in the chair and looks up at Kevil but doesn;t seem to really see him. "I went and saw Gloss. Wanted to apologize to her for," she shakes her head, "for kissing her fiance." she shakes her head looking to the floor again. "I told her I loved him, i even suggested a circle..." she places her hands over her face and her body trembles lightly as she begins to cry" * Kevil looks surprised, then kneels by the chair, pulling her into a light embrace so she can cry on his shoulder. "Hush..." He murmurs soothing nonsense things as she cries herself out. * Meghan leans against him for a few moments her tears flowing. Then she leans back brushing her face with the back of her hand and looks at him without saying anything <Kevil> ::stands and moves to sit in the opposite chair:: So. What happened, bright star? <Meghan> I went to talk to Gloss. To apologize for kissing Val before we left. To try and make her understand why I did and what happened. And to tell her that I loved him still. Michelle told me I should. She said I needed to see if the option of a circle would be available or not. So I would know how to deal with my feeling for him. So I did. * Kevil nods. "And she said what?" <Meghan> ::barely a whisper:: She said no <Meghan> ::softly:: she said because of what happened with Charoli (sp?) <Kevil> ::considers:: Mm. I can see that. ::he eyes her:: But I thought you, yourself, were... not open to the idea of a circle? You changed your mind? Because of this? <Meghan> ::shrugs slightly:: I love Vallel, and care a great deal for Glossaria. I was willing to at least explore the idea to see what would become of it <Kevil> ::raises an eyebrow:: You would compromise your own morals to have a piece of him? ::he shakes his head:: A circle is not an idea to be explored, any more than is marriage. I cannot fault you for considering the idea. But... ::he sighs:: <Kevil> Bright star, do you know how he feels toward you? <Meghan> ::shakes her head:: I have no idea how he feels. <Kevil> Why not? You are even an empath, bright star - you could read his feelings without him even knowing it. He has said *nothing*? * Meghan lowers her eyes again closing them after a moment. "He has not said anything, and I have not read his feeling, and would not without asking him first." * Kevil looks at her for a long moment. "Why have you not asked him how he feels? Don't you think his feelings are important? Would it not be cruelty to press your suit upon him unwanted?" * Meghan shakes her head again looking up at Kevil. "He will tell me he cares about me. That he always will," she smiles somewhat bitterly. "That he will always need me. But he loves Gloss and wants to be her husband. I just need to figure out how to go from here" * Kevil laughs shortly and bitterly. "You think these are not his feelings? It is not long since that I have heard words with quite the same meaning: 'Be my brother, but not my lover.'" * Meghan nods looking hard at Kevil "Do you still love Zoya?" <Kevil> ::looks away, out the window, then back at Meghan:: Yes. Though lately, I begin... to believe she may have been right, that what I feel could be transmuted. ::he sighs:: It is not an easy path, though. <Meghan> ::nods:: I need to somehow get on that path. Somehow work my love for him to just a friendship. I know that, I just ::she shrugs and smiles weakly at him:: it's not easy * Kevil smiles sympathetically. "I know, bright star... I don't think it is something you can force. I think it is a... a wearing away under time, like a stone slowly being shaped by a trickle of water." He sighs wearily. "But I will help you, if I can." <Meghan> ::nods:: I know you will. I'm lucky to have you here. ::she sighs lightly and looks out the window and then stands quickly:: I should go. It's late and the last thing I want to do is keep you from sleeping. <Kevil> I was not sleeping anyhow... ::his smiles brightens somewhat:: Before you go, I will see if I can help you somewhat, just for tonight, d'va? * Meghan looks curiously at him and sits again "How?" * Kevil pushes her chair with his foot so she is facing out the window. "Look at the sky, bright star. Find a star to call your own. Or look at the moon. Find some bright thing to hold your eye." * Meghan looks out the window and fixes her eyes on a particularly bright twinkling star "Ok" she smiles lightly <Kevil> ::softly:: Do not look away from it, d'va? This is a... meditation, yes? Try not to think - just look at the light and imagine it expanding to bathe you. Take your time... ::he picks up his lute and plays a quiet, cascading, unending ripple of music.:: <Kevil> Let it enter through your eyes until you no longer *have* eyes - only light. Let it fill your mind. Feel it flowing down your throat, filling your lungs. Breathe the light... <Kevil> Let it flow over your heart, into it. Feel the light with every beat of your heart. Let it pump the light into your blood. Feel it pushing through your body... Pouring out of your fingertips, your toes. * Meghan leans forward and rests her elbows on her knees and stairs at the star letting it's light slowly fill her mind the music slowly becoming an accent to the light <Kevil> Take a deep breath... deeper... Feel the light filling your body. When you breathe out, you breathe light. It is part of you. * Meghan s body visibly relaxes and her breathing deepens. Her world slowly becomes the light of the star the music and Kevil's voice <Kevil> ::even softer:: The light is serene, and it will lend that serenity to you if you wish it. The light can be hot or cold, soft or hard. The light is yours, to do with as you will. Let it become part of you. <Kevil> ::slowly, he stops playing:: Even in the darkness, the light lives within you. Let it shine, and it will illuminate whatever it is you need to see. * Meghan blinks and leans back in the chair her eyes never leaving the star. Her breathing is steady and soft. * Kevil stops talking, and leans back in his own chair, smiling at her, waiting for her to absorb the light and come back to herself. * Meghan sits for a few long moments and then blinks a soft smile settling over her face, She turns and looks at Kevil "Why do you call me bright star?" <Kevil> ::he grins:: There has always been a light within you, Lady Meghan. Even if you have kept it shielded. * Meghan smiles back at him nodding. She looks out at the star once more for a moment and then stands again. "Now that you have once again calmed me and helped me get back to the place I need to be I think I am going to go home and get some sleep" <Kevil> ::he nods and stands:: Sleep is good. Try to remember the meditation. I will do it for you again if you wish, but you can do it yourself in your mind, if you try. ::he smiles:: It is very useful. <Meghan> ::nods::I will. Your music and voice are always soothing to me but I could probably do it when I am alone as well ::she smiles and steps close hugging him tightly:: Thank you Kevil <Kevil> ::he returns the hug and kisses the top of her head softly:: It is a hard road you must walk, bright star. But try to remember you need not walk it alone. <Meghan> ::whispers:: I know ::she smiles at him and kisses his cheek lightly:: Good night dear friend <Kevil> ::smiles:: Good night. * Meghan turns and slips from the room making her way out of the Inn and back to home. * Kevil softly closes the door to his room as she leaves, and returns to his seat by the window and the wandering tune of his lute. |
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