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* Jaret is home, sitting in a chair by the window reading in the sunlight. * Meghan steps up to the door and takes a deep breath before knocking gently * Jaret looks up, and hops out of his chair and walks briskly over to the door. "Meghan, it's a pleasure to see you. Please, come in." He bows politely. * Meghan nods and smile a bit as she steps in "Good to see you to Jaret. I hope I'm not interrupting anything?" <Jaret> No, of course not. I was just reading an old book I've read plenty of times before. Please, sit down. Can I get you anything? * Meghan shakes her head lightly taking a seat "No I am fine thank you" <Jaret> As you will. ::sits:: So... are you feeling better? From last week? <Meghan> ::nods:: I am very much thank you. It was mostly just shock from what I was feeling <Jaret> Good. I'm glad to hear that. * Meghan smiles softly <Meghan> I appreciate your concern. <Jaret> So... what can I do for you, Meghan? <Meghan> Well ::thinks a moment:: I have been trying to think of a way to tell you this without seeming to forward. ::pauses again for a moment:: I think the best way to start would be to explain to you what I think happened last week. <Jaret> Whatever you think is best, of course. <Meghan> I have know for a while that I have psionic abilities, as you to know from first hand experience ::smiles:: But I have never really been able to understand what specific abilities they were * Jaret nods. <Meghan> Well last week when Vallel was hurt I was able to feel his pain. Emotionally as well as physically. Since then I have had a chance to look through a few of Tyl's book and believe that I have empathic abilities * Meghan watches Jaret closely as she talks for his reaction <Jaret> I think Michelle said something to that effect during the aftermath of things last week. How... how does that make you feel? * Meghan laughs lightly <Meghan> Suddenly...I feel all sorts of things <Meghan> But mostly I am glad for some ::pauses:: direction <Jaret> Direction? I don't understand. <Meghan> Well now that I understand a bit more specifically what abilities I have I know where to go forward with my studies at school. As well as how I can be most helpful to people <Meghan> Which somewhat brings me to what I wanted to talk to you about. <Jaret> Yes? I admit, you've raised my curiosity. * Meghan pauses and looks at Jaret hard before beginning again <Meghan> I like you Jaret. I like you a lot. I enjoy every moment I spend with you and seem to think about you much more than I maybe should when I am not with you. I have tried to indirectly covey those feeling to you, with little success I think. <Meghan> Well now I just feel that given everything that has happened it's maybe better for me to just be out with it <Meghan> And that's it ::sighs softly:: * Jaret takes a deep breath. "I... had thought you might feel that way." <Meghan> I'm not asking for any big relationship or anything like that. I just wanted you to know how I felt. What you do with that....well that's up to you I guess <Jaret> I do like you, Meghan. You're a very nice, kind person, and you've showed your strength by adjusting to what must have been a very drastic change in your life. If you were worried about... you don't have to. <Jaret> However... ::sighs and stands, looking out the window at the setting sun:: ... did you know I was engaged once? * Meghan shakes her head slowly "No" <Jaret> It... things.... we canceled the marriage. I don't know what's happened to her anymore. * Meghan nods watching him carefully <Jaret> Frankly, the months I was engaged were among the most miserable, bleak times of my life. For many reasons. But I have no desire to repeat that ever again. * Meghan nods doing her best to keep all emotion from her face * Meghan stands <Jaret> Therefore... ::sighs, and begins to pick his words very carefully:: ... when I became aware of your feelings for me, I felt... I felt like you wanted more from me than I was willing to give, and rather than begin courting you knowing that I would soon feel like I was getting in over my head or you might want a more significant relationship than I wanted... I chose to try to remain friends. * Meghan nods and forces a smile <Meghan> I understand. <Jaret> I'm sorry if I have hurt you. That was never my intent. Indeed, it was opposite what I wished. <Meghan> It's ok. I shouldn't have let myself ::pauses:: well no matter. It's fine. <Jaret> Why shouldn't you have let yourself? * Meghan glances at you thinking for a moment <Meghan> I tend to let myself get close emotionally, jump in with both feet first you could say, and more often than not end up feeling hurt <Meghan> Not to any fault of the other person. But my own * Meghan shrugs "I'll learn eventually I guess" <Jaret> I'm sorry, if that's what I've done -- caused you to feel hurt. <Meghan> ::nods:: I know and I appreciate that. <Jaret> Nothing here is your fault, Meghan. I... I'm just the wrong person for anything serious. Things had to go very wrong before I learned that, but I've accepted it. <Meghan> Do you think that because that one relationship was bad that you could never have a good one? <Jaret> No, it's not like that. Not exactly. It's more like... it's more I'm not the right person for anyone to devote themselves to. And, I found out, I wasn't happy trying to live up to Candra's expectations of who I should be. <Meghan> But you shouldn't have to live up to someone's expectations of who you should be. And how do you know you're not the right person if you don't give anyone the opportunity to get close to you. I'm not saying it needs to be me specifically. I'm just saying it's sad that you could miss the most wonderful experience of your life simply because you've been hurt once <Jaret> Oh, Meghan, don't worry about me. I'm happy with me life. even without a betrothed. I.. I just hope you can be happy to. * Meghan nods "I will be ok" * Jaret smiles. "I'm very glad to hear that." * Meghan nods again <Meghan> Were you planning on going over to the Hall tonight? <Jaret> Yes, I was. <Meghan> Mind if I walk with you then? <Jaret> Thank you for the stone, by the way. It was a welcome comfort, while I was gone. <Jaret> But of course! * Meghan smiles <Meghan> I'm so glad you found it useful. I can rewarm it for you if you'd like <Jaret> It still has some left in it, still. But if you want... ::fishes around in the inner pocket of his jacket:: Here. ::holds out the smooth river stone, with the 'M' marked on its surface:: * Meghan takes the stone and holds it in her hands for a moment closing her eyes. After about a minute she opens then and hands it back. <Meghan> There that should last you a while * Jaret accepts the stone back. "Thank you very much." He slips it back in his jacket pocket. "Shall we?" * Meghan nods and turns to the door * Jaret opens the door for Meghan. * Meghan steps out into the crisp night * Jaret closes the door behind him and sets off with Meghan for the Meade Hall. |
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